And it has been sooo LONG

Hello World!. I hope all is well & preparing yourselves for the HOLIDAY SEASON!. HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL!!!!! My Thanksgiving & Birthday were both great!. I ate good, partied good & loved being home!. I had a blast w/ family & REAL FRIENDS!. Being aways has shown me how much I miss them all.. being home was a GREAT FEELING!. But as the date shows.. I haven't blogged in such a looooong time!. So w/ that being said... UPDATES:

My first semester of college is OVER!. I took my last final on Saturday. Will be turing in my

English paper tomorrow & then heading out to the airport!.

Back to HOME-SWEET-HOME!!.

Going back home is one of thee BEST feelings in thee world!!.

i love it!.

I MISSED MY MOMMIE. BROTHER. DADDY. & OTHERS!.

&

they all MISSED me as well!.

So... w/ that being said!.

Tomorrow will be my last day in Reno for a month!. I am sure I will {might} miss this place!.

but...

I AM GOING HOME!.

XOXO.

E.SHELLE.

Confusion causes STRESS

Being confused and having soo many thoughts running through the mind only creates more & more stress for a person. I have been doing fine w/ the whole situation between me & LOMLF, like i have continued to smile & have not been my usual self of always crying & fighting.. all that nonsense. So to say the least, I think I am actually growing up which is a good thing. Not only to say that I have others who support me & encourage me & be there for me to get it all out!. But now .. I think I have created a new dilemma for myself. What am I going to do about school...

I'm not at the school of my dreams.. or where I wanted to be because of financial issues; granted, everything does happen for a reason. But I had my heart set on attending Howard University for the fall 08' to only have to make a choice; either sacrifice coming home for holidays because of cost of attendance or go to school closer to home & family & be able to come home. Well of course I chose to go to school closer rather than having my family in a bad situation right. Okay so now, I am here!. But since I got here, I had already made up my mind that I would stay for 2 or 3 yrs & then transfer to UA for their pharmacy program/college. But recently sitting here thinking about what I do & do not have HERE. I have been contemplating to speed up the transfer process & leave fall 09'... but yet again finances come into play. Going from paying close to nothing for school to.. ah. lets say a little less than $30,000. & I FOR SURE DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK HOME. I will stay HERE before I go back home, granted, home would save me more money, I would have a job, & a car. But am I willing to sacrifice?? Seems as if I would be back tracking in my life instead of moving forward. But I have seen.. those who stayed home for 4 yrs. graduated & then moved on & also those who have... gone away for 4 yrs & then went back home. But I just dont think leaving & going back would be soo safe!. Idk. so Right now.. i am confused & i knw it is going to soon turn to stress & fustration. ugh which i want neither. So until next time I guess. I am going to give myself some time to think about it & talk to my family & she what conclusions & agreements we can all come to!.

XOXO.

E.SHELLE.

NO ONE...

NO ONE CAN:

-SMILE BRIGHT AS ME
-LAUGH LIK ME
-CARE LIKE ME
-HUG LIK ME
-SMELL LIK ME
-BE A FRIEND LIK ME
-HELP LIK ME
-APPRECIATE LOVE LIK ME
-CRY LIK ME
-TELL YU ITS GONNA BE OK LIK ME
-SUPPORT YU LIK ME
-& LASTLY... LOVE LIK ME!

WANNA KNOW WHY??

B/C I CAN NEVER EVER BE DUPLICATED. ONE CAN TRY TO DUPLICATE ME OR THINK THEY ARE ME. BUT IN REALITY. THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE ME [ask R.KELLY] he knows.

THERE IS ONLY ROOM FOR ONE E.SHELLE IN THIS WORLD. & SHE IS HERE. SO DON'T TRY & REPLACE ME .. DUPLICATE ME.. TRY TO BE LIK ME.. OR ENVY ME..

GET LIKE YOURSELF & LEARN HOW TO BE A "ME" NOT A WANNABE OR REJECT OF SOMEONE ELSE.

I CAN LOOK UP TO BIG SIS & BIG FRIENDS. SEEK THE DRIVE & AMBITION THEY HAVE.. BUT GUESS WHAT??

I WILL NEVER BE THEM. CUZ THERE IS ROOM IN THIS WORLD FOR ONE ME OF EACH OF US.

SO ALWAYS STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF!.

XOXO.

E.SHELLE. [only ONE ME]

WELCOME NOVEMBER...

AH.. so lets update my life i guess. I will be home in 25 days. I am soooo ready to go. I know its only for 5 days. but then I will be back in about 2 1/2 - 3 weeks. but I just need to go home as of right now. my last few days have been the craziest ever.

Right now:

I am feeling hecka sad because i am in my dorm room alone & i live w/ a party of 7.. & NO ONE is here. i mean i often times enjoy me peace & quiet. time alone. but right now IS NOT one of those times where i need to be alone. lik.. just the comfort of someone being close by. i dont need to talk to them or anything.. just knowing that i am not here alone & someone is close by. ugh. its times lik this when i just wanna pick up the phone, dial his number & use his voice to calm me. & make me feel protected. but nooo... whenever i'm havin' hard times & i want him.. i cant have him.

WHICH SUCKS. what is there to do when one is all alone?? ugh. this is when i always question myself why i dont have many friends?? i have them.. but very limited. mind yu, i do love the ones i have. but sometime i want more more more. but of course. we always want more when we cant have it.. or want something or someone when we know we cant have them. ugh.

HALLOWEEN 2008:

SUCKED.

ugh. gosh. i dont even wanna bring this issue up but its a part of my life & its going NO WHERE. so i might as well vent about it. not in detail but ugh. it is definitely a night to remember. & i'm always here for my friends & those that i care about. but yu know.. sometime when i need someone to be here for me. NO ONE IS HERE. the person i expect the most out of let me down. ugh. its just like that i guess. its all goodie though. so ah. yeah.. tomorrow i am going to church & i'm sure i will come out of there feeling lik a way better person than i do right now.

okay so. ah.. people are finally here & i finally feel a sense of relief.. so i guess i am headed to shower & bed now & expect a better day tomorrow than the past few days have been.

XOXO.

E.SHELLE.

MY FRIENDS

Okay. we all have friends... especially those we are pretty positive until sooner or later they prove to us that they are not true friends. Sure that sounds familiar to more than just a few. A few of my friendships have grown into love. sister/brother relationships. remained at a standstill. while some are those friendships that I know exist even though we may not communicate on a regular basis but when we do... we have GREAT conversations & talk as if.. we talk every single day. I am thankful for each of my friendships because they all have an affect on the type of person I am... it started out as a simple 2 week friendship... still a friendship & great love thus far. 4 yrs & counting. & my big sister!. speaks for herself, due to grad from Xavier 2009, go on to grad school & eventually she will be DR. HENDRIX until that end changes & she becomes a MRS. to some mans MR. but i love her dearly & she has truly inspired me to strive to be a better person... not only a better person but she has helped me develop into a WOMAN!. & there is also one more friend I think has had an affect on my life. She isn't where my big sis is, but she is slowly making her way!. She has drive & ambition. She has a goal set in mind & i hope that she sticks w/ it & she is able to achieve her goal & I see her graduating to become DR. COOK!. Yep girlie, its YOU.. said somethin special the other day.. damn.. all the way in reno & she talk to me more than she talk to those who she consider "friends" in vegas. but its just lik that sometime!.

All in all.. i just wanted to take some time to reflect on my friends & the relationships I have w/ each of them. Thank you!. All of my friends have impacted me in some way shape or form. & i am most happy of the relationships I am developing w/ these girls in Reno. Right over the bridge are my Canada hall room 15.. A B C girls!. I LOVE YOU CHICKS ... all the late night giggles, snacks, laughs, cries together.. awwww.. man.. its all priceless!. I'm thankful..

XOXO.

E.SHELLE.

BaCk To ThE bAsICs

So... already, its Sunday all over again!. Ugh. Which means, my week is beginning just as it does every other weekend!. Sunday, Relax. I don't think I have any homework today. Although I should probably be reading a chapter or something of that nature!. But I feel lik relaxing & unwinding from still my testful week last week. So today, I plan on reading a few magazines & then taking a nap while my roomies are productive & study for their math test tomorrow.

RECAP OF THE WEEKEND: Friday night, whew, did it feel good to unwind w/ my roomies, Pops {roomies uncle}, Brit, & BUD LIGHT LIME!. lol of course I just watched them lol.. but Brit did tell me I deserved one because I had 4 tests :) haha. thanks!. :) So... over the weekend.. I had my eye on a piece of candy!. Yum!. Why are things soo bittersweet?!?! Me & LOMLF is wonderful! But the eye candy is an {insider} lol. ugh!. Always something yu want but definitely cant have.. what a controversy!. ugh. lol.. Okay so moving on the Saturday: Attended the homecoming game.. OF COURSE WE BEAT THOSE UTAH AGGIES. UGH. THEY SUCK. if i can recall.. score was lik 44 to 17 or somewhere around there!. But we definitely blew them out although for the past 2 games, our defense have been acting lik they have butter on their finger tips. But i guess the win is all that really matters!. & Now today is Sunday & the plans are set!. oh joy.

OKAY SO CHECK OUT THIS STUPIDITY:

3 TALENTED YOUNG MEN... 2 FRESHMAN, 1 JUNIOR. RIGHT. DECIDE THAT

THEIR "MONTHLY ATHELETIC CHEKCS" ARE JUST NOT ENOUGH

TO KEEP THEM IN THE LASTEST FASHIONS. SO WHAT DO THEY DECIDE TO DO?

HOW ABOUT... GOING TO SPARKS, NEVADA TO A NEW STORE "SHEILDS."

I DON'T KNOW WHICH ONE OR ALL OF THEM. BUT THEY HAD THIS BRIGHT IDEA

THAT IT WOULD BE JUST FINE TO STEAL & OF COURSE THEY WOULDN'T GET CAUGHT.

WRONG....

THESE FOOLS... GET CAUGHT STEALING ED HARDY & WHATEVER ELSE IT WAS THEY WANTED!. OH GREAT. 3 PLAYERS... ONE HAS STARTED ALL OF BUT ONE GAME SINCE HIS COLLEGE CAREER. & THE OTHER 2 KIDS HAVE NEVER EVEN PLAYED A COLLEGE GAME... MIND YU, HADN'T EVEN HAD THEIR FIRST "OFFICIAL" BASKBETBALL PRACTICE. WAIT & THE JUNIOR DRIVES A 300.. HOW HE GONNA PAY FOR THAT NOW?? UGH. PARENTS?? DISAPPOINTED I KNOW!. SO ANYWAY. TO SAY THE LEAST. they are now SUSPENDED & who knows if they are still going to get those checks every month. It was all over the local news. espn & everywhere. They not only had to apologize to their coaches, teammates, friends, family & whomever else... but thee STATE OF NEVADA!. ugh. how embarrassing right. So my advice to all is: DO NOT RISK LOOSING ALL YU MAY HAVE FOR SOMETHING THAT ISN'T EVEN WORTH IT. I WOULD LOVE TO GET THEIR CHECK ONCE A MONTH. HAVE THE LASTEST GUCCI BANDANA [ 4 KRIS ], NEWEST BAGS & WHATEVER ELSE MY LIDL' HEART DESIRED!. I WOULD DEFINITELY NOT STEAL!. SO W/ THAT BEING SAID. PLEASE KEEP YUR HANDS INSIDE OF YOU POCKETS & NO STICKY FINGERS PLEASE & THANK YOU!.

XOXO.

E.SHELLE.

YES I SCREAM.

I am quite ready for this week to be over. Not only is it homecoming week, but I have had midterms since Tuesday!. A test every single day. Ugh. Started w/ Music Appreciation. Substance Abuse & Addiction. Sociology & tomorrow, my testing will finally end w/ Math!. Oh the joy!. I am soo ready for the weekend!. Tomorrow after class I plan on taking after my big sister & attempting to do my own hair. Roller set or whatever you wanna call it. But I do know that I am ready to relax. sleep in til' 12 or 1. Get up & do it all over again!. I think this weekend should be a movie marathon weekend!. We have all had busy & semi-stressful weeks.

This week, I have had a lot on my mind. Everything from: family, school, relationships & so forth. I have a different view on each situation!. Ugh. When I start to think of each of them, I can feel a headache coming on. Ugh. All stress me out to great matters. Family will always be family regardless. School, I can only do my best and expect the best of myself. I feel to succeed and please myself, but I know there are others around that I must please!. Relationship, oh that is one big HEADACHE in itself. Its not so much the LOMLF.. but .. ah.. yeah. ah. thats a topic for another time when I feel lik opening up more & exposing myself to the world!.

arrrrgh. okay so i just had a whole paragraph types & unfortunately something happened to it. it disappeared & i really dont remember what I said nor do i feel lik trying to remember!. so ah. w/ that being said... I AM READY FOR THE WEEKEND!. Homecoming game this Saturday. We better win!. Have me out there in whatever the weather gonna be!.

So w/ all this pointless nonsense being said. I must now go attempt to study for my math test tomorrow.

XOXO.
E.SHELLE.

WHITE STUFF

NEED I SAY MORE? OF COURSE!. SO LETS BEGIN BY SAYING, IT IS OCTOBER 10, 2008... I REPEAT OCTOBER 10, 2008. SKIP THE YEAR BESIDES IT BEING MY FIRST SEMESTER OF COLLEGE! OKAY ANYWAY... CAN SOME PLEASE ANSWER THE QUESTION OF WHY IT IS SNOWING RIGHT NOW?? I REPEAT RIGHT NOW. I AM SITTING AT MY DESK TYPING THIS IS AND IT SNOW FLURRIES!. NOT ONLY AM I IRRITATED BECAUSE OF THIS SNOW. BUT I WAS AWAKEN FROM MY SLEEP, " OMG ITS SNOWING" screams a a suitemate who is from up here!. c'mon girl. yu have seen snow before. I'M NOT EVEN EXCITED!. & ITS STILL KIDS WALKIN' AROUND IN SHORTS!. WTF???

OKAY SO THAT BEING, I HAD AN APPOINTMENT TODAY AT 6 p.m. TO GET SOMETHING DONE THAT I REALLY WANT. I REALLY WANT TO KEEP MY APPOINTMENT, BUT IF THIS SNOW DOESN'T STOP THEN I AM GONNA HAVE TO RESCHEDULE. REALLY DON'T WANT TO BECAUSE I HAVE GUTS TODAY TO DO IT!. SO I GUESS WE WILL SEE HOW THE REST OF THIS DAY GOES. ALTHOUGH THE SNOW IS NOT STICKING TO THE GROUND. ITS JUST THE FACT THAT ITS SNOWING.. REALLY?? IN OCTOBER?? I GUESS SO.

RENO LIFE!. OVER IT!.

P.S. I am still going home for Thanksgiving/ my birthday!. I'm super thrilled & excited now!. I found an even cheaper ticket & I will be getting home 30 min earlier!. May not seem lik a big deal to me, but it is a big deal to me when I haven't seen mi familia since August 23 to be exact!. I miss the lidl kid & parents!.

LOVE

so the topic of the night is that four letter word that some of us dread sayin, the word some enjoying saying, and the word that means ALOT to each of us.. the word is LOVE! My roomies & I are just sitting here.. mind you, its 12:38 a.m. & just chillin.. So today, I've had some really deep conversations w/ K.M.N.C. while we were here alone. I feel that I am connected to many people in more ways than just one. We share things from growing up, our parents, goals for our future & how we plan to achieve those goals & why we have those goals.. to be able to care for our younger sibling(s) if something were to ever happen to our parents!. So anyway, when A.G.E.M arrived home, we had more meaningful convos & then we began to discuss the MEN IN OUR LIVES: one. my man & A.G.E.M man both live on the EAST COAST!. We cant just get up in the middle of the night & say, "hey, i'm going to see _______".... K.M.N.C man... is a guy who she loves dearly, hates to see him w/ another girl, will cut a bi*ch over him & yeah... but we all decided to come up w/ a list of why we LOVE these men!. So here is part 1 of the list thus far!. I'm not quite sure if there will be a part 2 but lets just say there is a part 1 for now!. We live in the present, dream about the future.. & doing what it takes to live our dream someday!. So here begins the list... WE LOVE these men BECAUSE THEY:
- AMBITIOUS
- GOAL ORIENTED
-SUCCESFUL
-DRY SENSE OF HUMOR
-ATTITUDE
-PERSONALITY
-SENSUAL TOUCH TO OUR SOFT, BEAUTIFUL SKIN
-THE TENDER KISSES
-THE TREATMENT WE RECEIVE FROM THEM
-THE LATE NIGHT PHONE CALLS BEING THAT NONE OF THEM WHERE WE ARE
To say the least, writing this blog is making me tear up because he is sooo far away & he is a part of me that I am missing so badly. He is the one who holds me when I cry or until I fall asleep, give me words of advice & encouragement when I am down, tell me everything is going to be okay when I think its all over, and just that person to not only push me when I am falling behind but shove me & tell me I can't give up. Inspire me to be more than just myself, but BETTER than myself. Go to see my family when I'm not even home & express his love to me. I always dreamt of a fairytale life..never knew if it was going to come true or not... but thus far, I can say that the dream is beginning to come true. HARD-WORK, TRUST, DEDICATION, HONOR, FAITH, LOVE, JOY & THE WANT TO CONTINUE is what has held us together this long. [4 years & counting] and made us stronger than those who thought we would never make it. So.. to conclude... I love him dearly, & I vow to myself to do right by him, fight tempations & know not only what but WHO I have waiting for me.. I LOVE YOU L.N.G.J.


XOXO.
E.SHELLE.

Bliss

I am finally moving forward!.

Yesterday, I purchased my ticket to go home for Thanksgiving/my birthday!. I am sooo utterly happy!. But the best part is ... I got a FANTASTIC DEAL!. Glad I continue to look to find the best deals I can find to get the most with my money!. So to say the least.. I'm not paying $260.. or $23o!. BUT $188.50!. What a steal right!!!!! haha. I am so happy! & the best part is that I get to stay for 5 days!. I was already going to miss a day of class so might as well miss Monday instead of the day before Thanksgiving so I can spend more time with my family!.

I can't wait!. && to complete my utter happiness.... it would be great for the LOMLF to come home for Thanksgiving as well!. He has mentioned it and also going out of town while coming home for only a few days!. haha!. But it would be INCREDIBLE to see him!. That would really make my few days break!.

Oh okay... so btw: Yesterday, the future president of America Obama was at my school. I went to see him!. It was great!. I only got like one good snap shot of him because it was roughly about 12,000 people there and due to the fact I am height challenged... I had to get on my cousin boyfriend shoulders so I could see!. It was a great experience for me!. I hope everyone get out there and vote to make a difference in the world!.

RECAP

Oh joy!. One of my favorite colors!. Yay!. Okay... lets recap the weekend!.

Friday night.. pretty much everyone left campus to attend the UNR. v. unSUCKlv football game!. So to say the least, campus was pretty quiet & mind you.. DEAD!. question.. why wasn't i there?? well was supposed to be.. but w/o a ride & I WAS NOT about to pay $200 for a ticket, it was in my best interest to stay at school!. But it wasn't soo much a waste!. I spent time with my chickas/roomies/girls/friends... you can catch on!. So we just sat around enjoying one another & laughing!. Oh yeah.. Ash G.E. got her hair braided!. Tre visited us too because he was home alone [lowkey scared]... all his roomies went to the game as well!. i slept in A-RAY's bed!. & [pee'd, total INSIDER] LOL HAHA.

Saturday day/night... pretty much woke up wayyyy too early...so I had to wake up, have my dose of LUCKY CHARMS & go back to sleep!. Slept for a good hour or so!. Showered & prepared for the night!. I think we watched a movie or such.. but i dont quite remember!. It is Monday.. the weekend was boring.. so therefore it is quite a fuzz right now!. The night/morning... ended/began by us all staying up until late 4 a.m. .. Ash G.E. & I decide to go to bed.. can't fall asleep so we stay up for another HOUR lying in bed.. chatting!. I slept in A-RAYs bed again!. b/c she was in VEGAS as well...

Sunday... wow!. Phone keeps ringing, text messages keep buzzing, I've ignored a few calls.. answered a few!. Signs of it being time for me to wake up!. But I don't until 12:30 p.m.! NOOOOO.. i have not slept in this late in sooo long!. Ash G.E. & I... finally decide to get out of bed.. grab another daily dose of LUCKY CHARMS... sit around & talk.. then shower!. I return to my room to shower!. I finally wash my hair [throw it in a bun... sweat pants, wife beater & I'm ready] off to the library for a day being productive!. Revised my essay, completed my math homework, checked e-mails & the like... went to dinner [chicken wings & fries]... didn't go to bed last night until after 1 a.m. Chatted w/ LOMLF [totally jacked from oso, thanks i >3 you] on aim for awhile.. until he had to go to bed [3 hour time difference]!

Monday has finally arrived and almost over!. I was very tired when trying to wake up this morning!. Called my mother sounding like a son instead of a daughter!. I was soooo dead, but had to go to class!.

So this has become a bunch of uninteresting rambles!. But.. hey.. thats my life & it was my weekend.. what can i say?? until next time folks!.

STAY TUNED....

ESHELLE.

RANDOM FOR MY SATURDAY AFTERNOON

GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN. SING IN THE SHOWER. DANCE IN THE RAIN. CRY TOGETHER & LOVE ENDLESSLY. IT IS SATURDAY, SEPTEMBER 27, 2008. I AM SITTING IN MY DORM ROOM WISHING I WAS IN LAS VEGAS. FOR NON OTHER THAN THE UNR. V. UNLV. GAME. to watch the REBELS LOOSE!. HAHA. OH JOY!. GO WOLF PACK!.

OK SO. THIS NOTE IS HECKA RANDOM W/ LOTS OF DIFF. SUBJECTS. TOPICS. & DISCUSSIONS!.

IN EXACTLY ONE MONTH. MY HUBBY WILL CELEBRATE HIS 19TH BIRTHDAY. [ unfortunately w/o me again ] WHAT WILL BE HIS GIFT. BEATS ME!. HAVE IDEAS BUT HAVE YET TO REACH A FINAL DECISION ON HIS GIFT!. IT SHALL BE A SURPRISE TO BOTH OF US.
SO THEN. IN EXACTLY 2 MONTHS. I WILL BE CELEBRATING MY 19TH BIRTHDAY. WITH THE BLESSINGS OF ALSO SHARING MY DAY WITH A DAY OF THANKS!. MY BIRTHDAY FALLS ON THANKSGIVING THIS YEAR. SO I GET THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS [ A VERY YUMMY MEAL, BIRTHDAY CAKE & GIFTS ]. OH JOY!. HOW EXCITING.
BUT SADLY, I HAVE YET TO BUY MY TICKET TO GO HOME!. I WAS HOPPING TO MAYBE RIDE W/ SOMEONE. BUT I DON’T KNOW IF THAT WILL HAPPEN. SO IF NOT, I WILL JUST HAVE TO GET THE TICKET FOR $260. OR LEAVE A DAY EARLY. MISS MATH & ENGLISH & PAY $232. $30 CHEAPER!. I CAN USE THAT MONEY!. I AM A COLLEGE STUDENT!. HA!.

Inspiration

So... just about every other day, I have a friend who tells me go read her blogs!. So me being me; I've always been interested in the lives of others so I always go read!. To see where her head is at or whats new in her life!. One night, I could not fall asleep so... I grabbed a bowl of LUCKY CHARMS, filled the bowl w/ VITAMIN D MILK, plopped down in front of my PINK DELL INSPIRON 1525 and began reading her blogs!. She had posted about 2 or 3 that day!. They were interesting so I continued to read!.

So now... lets just say... that she has been my inspiration to create one of these things!. I don't know how often I will blog or if they will even be interesting... some from time to time... I like to set my fingers on the keys and let them do the talkin!. It works!.

I hope people enjoy reading my blogs & become interested in my life as I am interested in other peoples lives!.

Stay tuned. Good day all.

E.Shelle!