Confusion causes STRESS

Being confused and having soo many thoughts running through the mind only creates more & more stress for a person. I have been doing fine w/ the whole situation between me & LOMLF, like i have continued to smile & have not been my usual self of always crying & fighting.. all that nonsense. So to say the least, I think I am actually growing up which is a good thing. Not only to say that I have others who support me & encourage me & be there for me to get it all out!. But now .. I think I have created a new dilemma for myself. What am I going to do about school...

I'm not at the school of my dreams.. or where I wanted to be because of financial issues; granted, everything does happen for a reason. But I had my heart set on attending Howard University for the fall 08' to only have to make a choice; either sacrifice coming home for holidays because of cost of attendance or go to school closer to home & family & be able to come home. Well of course I chose to go to school closer rather than having my family in a bad situation right. Okay so now, I am here!. But since I got here, I had already made up my mind that I would stay for 2 or 3 yrs & then transfer to UA for their pharmacy program/college. But recently sitting here thinking about what I do & do not have HERE. I have been contemplating to speed up the transfer process & leave fall 09'... but yet again finances come into play. Going from paying close to nothing for school to.. ah. lets say a little less than $30,000. & I FOR SURE DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK HOME. I will stay HERE before I go back home, granted, home would save me more money, I would have a job, & a car. But am I willing to sacrifice?? Seems as if I would be back tracking in my life instead of moving forward. But I have seen.. those who stayed home for 4 yrs. graduated & then moved on & also those who have... gone away for 4 yrs & then went back home. But I just dont think leaving & going back would be soo safe!. Idk. so Right now.. i am confused & i knw it is going to soon turn to stress & fustration. ugh which i want neither. So until next time I guess. I am going to give myself some time to think about it & talk to my family & she what conclusions & agreements we can all come to!.

XOXO.

E.SHELLE.