WOW MAN . I HAVE NOT WRITTEN ONE OF THESE IN AGES . & REASON .. I HAVE BEEN SO BUSY WITH SCHOOL, GETTING OVER PAST RELATIONSHIPS, MAKING NEW FRIENDSHIPS, AND BEING FOCUSED MY SECOND SEMESTER OF COLLEGE ..
BUT AS I SIT & MAKE A REALIZATION , I BEGIN TO THINK / WONDER WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NUMB & HAVE NO EMOTIONS AT ALL .. I GUESS ITS B/C I'M HUMAN & A FEMALE & HUMANS HAVE FEELINGS .. ESPECIALLY FEMALES . WE CAN'T INVOLVE OURSELVES WITHOUT INVOLVING OUR FEELINGS ..
THIS ISN'T SO MUCH ABOUT INVOLVING FEELINGS JUST LIK .. WHY CAN'T I NOT INVOLVE ANYTHING . JUST GO DAY BY DAY & BE NUMB TO THE WORLD AROUND ME . FEEL WHAT I WANT TO FEEL & EVERYTHING I DONT WANT TO FEEL CAN JUST GO AROUND ME OR I CAN GO RIGHT THRU IT ..
&& LATELY, MY FRIENDS HAVE BEEN SAYING THAT I SLEEP ALOT .. BUT AS I SIT HERE & THINK . I HAVE AN ANSWER FOR THEM . I SLEEP SOO MUCH B/C WHEN I'M SLEEP I DON'T THINK ABOUT WHAT IS TRUE AT HAND . REALITY OF SITATIONS OR WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON !. I CAN SLEEP & EVERYTHING JUST GOES MY WAY . I DEVELOP FANTASIES THAT I HOPE ONEDAY BECOME REALITIES .. MAN .. IF ONLY ..
QUICK VENT SESSION ..
HOPE TO RETURN SOONER ..
