And it comes to an END

The year is almost over, but overall, thee SEMESTER is over !! i am soooo HAPPY for that .. it has been a long rough semester & it was time for it to end . i am READY [ or so i think ] nxt semester . NEW MAJOR . NEW CLASSES . NEW JOBS . && A NEW ME .. hopefully a NEW BOO too but if NOT then thats fine too .. the boo will DEFINITELY be in Vegas b/c i CNT handle any of those Reno ppl .. they are just too YUCK !!!.

CURRENTLY : i am HOME.SWEET.HOME w/ my family [ auntee , madre , & padre ] grandparents will be here nxt week . but ugh this might be a looonnnggg month b/c i want thee parentals to act & continue w/ their routines as they would when i am at school. DONT stay up waiting on me to come home. DONT be always calling me when i'm out. DON'T be questioning my every move && always askn' where i'm going .. all that is UNNECESSARY ; i appreciate the concern, but i am GROWN . i'm on my own for about 8 months out of the yr ; i think i cn handle it .. i'm a BIG GIRL . thnx . but anway : glad to be around them but i do miss my INDEPENDENT LIFEE .


so anway : this is DEFINTIELY thee last BLOG OF 09' .. SOO SEE YA'LL AGAIN IN 2010 !!! whoo hoo ..

XOXO.

E.SHELLE iLOVEmylifee

NOVEMBER UPDATE

Hello World,

So my last update was in August, soo here we are 3 months later, November && so much has changed. My major is NO LONGER Biology. This 3rd semester of college and these classes have exposed me to a lot and made me realize that what I was once interested in is no longer an interest of mine. Next semester I will be a Social Work major w/ a Minor in Addictions Treatment. I have had enough Science && Math. They are not my passion. I wanted to be a Pharmacist, yess 6 figures a yr sounds great, but the road to get there is not interesting to me. I rather be HAPPY making a comfortable salary than making BIG BUCKS && doing something that I'm really not interested in. This semester has been really stressful, I will be soooo glad when its over & I have lost soo much motivation towards school && that is DEFINITELY NOT a good thing. I just want to be happy. But on thee brighter side of life ..

THEE GROWING UP OF E.SHELLE

i will be 20 yrs old in 10 days. soo crzy. i will NO LONGER be a teenager. Pretty amazing. but i must admit that 20 yrs old is just such an odd age to me !! lol . why might u ask? its just lik ; i'm in thee middle again. at 18 i was able to buy cigar products if i chose too. but now i still hv to wait until another yr to really party / buy alcohol !. although 19 is in the middle too, its not as weird as 20 b/c 21 is soo close yet soo far away at the same time. but i am all thee yet excited. but w/ age brings me to being wiser. more adult-like. having / taking on more responsibilities, and one step close to the WOMAN my mother has always been teaching me to be.

i am watching my young cousins. "sisters". & friends grow up right b4 my eyes. its kind of scary. && seeing my brother grow quickly is crazy too !. he is already 4 . i remember when he was just 4 mos old . wow right .

but to say thee least ; i will be going home in 5 days. staying for a week. bak in RENO for 2 weeks . & then bak home for a whole month. I get to spend Christmas w/ Auntee Mo && thee grandparentals . quite stoked about that !.

HOPE I'M BAK BEFORE NEXT YEAR . 2010.

2 YRS CLOSER TO "SCHEDULED" GRADUATION.

BUT W/ LOVE && HAPPY GREETINGS !!

LOVE U ALL .

E.SHELLE

MONTHS LATER !.

LOL ; so yeah clearly I rarely blog anymore ; somewhat I've forgetten about it. okay so ; i must say that TODAY 8.18.09 marks a new day for me !. lmao.. I decided to read my old blogs because I haven't been on in such a long time && while reading them I ran across a many blogs about the once LOML !. lol soo funny because i NO LONGER feel that way at all. All those blogs where I once expressed how much I loved him & was soo thankful for him; oh wow !. Lmao somewhat close to a joke lol . && I know today is a new day because while reading those old posts I didn't get the feeling in my heart to want him back or wonder why we didn't work or what we can do to make it work. Lol to say thee least; the feeling is ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! lol thnk you; its definitely about time. I've been waiting on this day for such a long time now & it is finally here so I say nothing more than I am happy! Okay so anyway ; enough about that guy ..

MOVING RIGHT ALONG ;

It is now my second of college. Go me; made it to my sophomore year! Must say that the first year was definitely an experience to remember. Gained some friends ; lost some .. it was great! But thats fine with me because I've always been the type who doesn't need / want alot of friends! Fine by me! Just alot has changed between freshman year to now ; but I must say that I am super ready for this year. I will & must always stay focused because I have all science & math classes this year. No time for BS & time to not go to class.

SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE GOING TO SCHOOL & MAKING POSITIVE MOVES. CONGRATULATIONS & BE BLESSED.

XOXO.

E.SHELLE <3

NUMB

WOW MAN . I HAVE NOT WRITTEN ONE OF THESE IN AGES . & REASON .. I HAVE BEEN SO BUSY WITH SCHOOL, GETTING OVER PAST RELATIONSHIPS, MAKING NEW FRIENDSHIPS, AND BEING FOCUSED MY SECOND SEMESTER OF COLLEGE ..

BUT AS I SIT & MAKE A REALIZATION , I BEGIN TO THINK / WONDER WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NUMB & HAVE NO EMOTIONS AT ALL .. I GUESS ITS B/C I'M HUMAN & A FEMALE & HUMANS HAVE FEELINGS .. ESPECIALLY FEMALES . WE CAN'T INVOLVE OURSELVES WITHOUT INVOLVING OUR FEELINGS ..

THIS ISN'T SO MUCH ABOUT INVOLVING FEELINGS JUST LIK .. WHY CAN'T I NOT INVOLVE ANYTHING . JUST GO DAY BY DAY & BE NUMB TO THE WORLD AROUND ME . FEEL WHAT I WANT TO FEEL & EVERYTHING I DONT WANT TO FEEL CAN JUST GO AROUND ME OR I CAN GO RIGHT THRU IT ..

&& LATELY, MY FRIENDS HAVE BEEN SAYING THAT I SLEEP ALOT .. BUT AS I SIT HERE & THINK . I HAVE AN ANSWER FOR THEM . I SLEEP SOO MUCH B/C WHEN I'M SLEEP I DON'T THINK ABOUT WHAT IS TRUE AT HAND . REALITY OF SITATIONS OR WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON !. I CAN SLEEP & EVERYTHING JUST GOES MY WAY . I DEVELOP FANTASIES THAT I HOPE ONEDAY BECOME REALITIES .. MAN .. IF ONLY ..

QUICK VENT SESSION ..

HOPE TO RETURN SOONER ..